I couldn’t sleep last night. I was wide awake at 1AM. I took 2 Advil PMs because I thought that was the dosage (I couldn’t read the fine print … font size - “extremely tiny”) but I think that was double the dosage. I’m feeling like I’m walking in a coma today. I did this video with Carrie Reese the other day (I was playing the colonoscopy patient - pre and post, not during) and she was explaining how a certain drug worked. “You’ll have no knowledge of the actual scope because you’ll be under conscious sedation - aware but you won’t remember anything.” I’m thinking this drug is closely related to double dosage Advil PM. Bleh.
Perhaps my insomnia is related to the drama in the world right now. People (close to me) are having babies and others surgery. Others are going through the pain of hospice and others are experiencing weird health things. The weather is bizarre, politics are whacky and summer is soon over. As an empath* I have to watch if my feelings are my own or am I absorbing everyone else’s stuff. My coach told me to step back and analyze my perspective before adding to a conversation because it might be laced with vicarious drama.
This is a good lesson for all of us though. Rarely does it happen that my emotion (be it anger or rage or whatever) relates purely to the situation at hand. My perspective on any given day is a blend of personal, situational and societal ingredients. Road rage colors my emotions at work. The book I’m reading or movie I watched even lends a perspective on my attitude. As adults and mature folks, it’s important to assess your mood before you react with high emotion. Counting to ten before speaking solves a lot of problems. Breathe … Namaste … Calm …
*Being empathetic is when your heart goes out to someone else. Being an empath means you can feel another person's happiness or sadness in your own body. ... At times it may even be difficult to tell if you are feeling your own emotions or someone else's. (it sounds crazy, but I believe it.)